Meaning and things of some relativity

Arrested in Shanghai

Well I am wondering things. I will be taking my test soon because if I don't get into school I will be taken off fathers insurance. I am glad for this, I fear my own laziness and am glad for the incentive, something I have never really had.

Well I think I would like to own an apartment complex. A nice business that I could have run by a maintenance guy, and then I'd do accounting and all things officie, my schooling would be for this. Then I'd have my art on the side. Maybe I could paint the building, and each door. Make it unique place for individuals of true value to reside. I want to draw, do something that I love and earn from it. I don't need anything beyond my means but God I would love to do that.

And I know it is not impossible, or even remotely out of reach. Let us use the magical thinking and trust in your own belief for your desires. Constant thinking of achieving your goal, and working towards it.

I have cut myself quite a lot, but I've concealed it when needed. I am trying to become healthy.

I got wasted on Smirnoff and threw up a shit load in the toilet at Rick's. Fun.


I truly cannot remember the last time I had sex. I am disturbed by this fact and hope it is caused by two depressions being combined into a volatile relationship of years.

What is life and death, is this all that there is? Is there a point?

I take that back. Let's stop this needless drama.

Love
Imp