Feeling Randy!

So I am obviously a horny ho! Don't know how long it's been @_@ too long is all I know...

Newho! Took two codeine for what ails me, my damn wisdom tooth! I hate the dentist because they scrutinize my ability to take care of me teeth. As long as I have not lost any yet, I'm good(I've lost one tooth btw).

So I actually(prepare to gasp) watched Highschool Musical Three with my niece Kaylie. It was durable, luckily there were very few spouts of humor for me to giggle at, and it was quite sparkly. Kaylie was dancing and acting crazy cute so it was reasonably fun. Though she did keep trying to get me to dance with her.

Well I will be working with a new hostess today. I will be training her of course, and I am trying to figure out how not to be overwhelming and not too informative. I'm not that great of a teacher and I remember how when I first got there I had a bit of trouble, mostly with the customers of course. I just hope she stays and does not quit after the first day ^-^

Here is a very small portion of what I'm writing, it is the beginning of the story, and I think I will revise it some more when I can think of better words and sweeter, smaller details.

Tallis Battles
The beginning of the Battles
Part One

E-Mana was a desolate planet. It was lush with life, but no creatures roamed the vast lands. It was quiet and beautiful.

However the God Natrul Sine found this planet to his liking, and the deity decided to bless this planet with his children. He gathered stardust and molded four beings. Natrul laid them on the soft earth and laid a finger on each forehead. All silver eyes opened and focused on Natrul.

"You will be my people, and you will be the Sanseins. You will be great warriors to protect this planet from others who try to dirty it with their sinful ways. Become strong, and live by my laws, if this is done, rewards will be reaped."

The four beings, who were two females and two males, nodded silently and went to their knees before the God, commencing the first prayer.
~END

Watching Meet the Robisons. Loves this movie ^.^. I love Goob :D.

Well I must take a bath and relax before work, also I've got to catch up with my Bioshock :D I love this game so hard!!

Love you Lovelys
Imp San

Difficulty in Writing

I have no idea how people manage to write whole frikkin' books!

I have written a total of ten not very long paragraphs and feel crazed! I keep revising and adding, hoping to make it an addictive read. I know this will not be my best, but I hope to make it something that someone will enjoy. I'd love to be able to write professionally, I've always been quite creative, and I think that may be where my true calling lies.

So about to eat Easy Max TRIPLE CHEESE BITCHES! And going to watch Pagemaster because I am the hugest dork you will ever find :P

Speaking of which I need to find some good Sega Genesis games to download! Been pimpin' that Yoshi but I want a different system and some more gaaaames! I love old systems :D

So newho....my frikkin tooth is killin' me lately. A corner of the tooth has emerged and it's been forever and nothing else has shown. Think I must go dentisting. I hate going because they always get angry at me for not getting any better on the tooth front. Oh shwell!

Well I am off to play Yoshi and shizzal. Talk to you lovely bitches later

Loves
Imp C

Writing Stories and Feeling Positive

So I have been writing something I'm calling Tallis Battles. About two races, the Biocly versus the Sansei. What ends up happening is that both races get their own top male and female warriors, the warriors breed and the single offspring of both races will be destined to battle until one wins, thus ending the war and putting whatever race loses under the other. I haven't got all the details worked out but it's a nice side project I feel commited to.

I have been feeling a bit better about certain things! I am drawing more, and using pencil, thus improving my drawing technique. I am obviously writing a bit more. I am still depressed as always but that will always be there and I will have to work through it.

The thing I do not like is certain thoughts and images my mind produces for me to watch like a film. I'll be sitting in the car and have an image of my opening the door or falling out. Or if I have the window rolled down I'll imagine my glasses flying off my face and being crushed. Overall stressful things. The thing is, I don't consciously think these things. I like being driven around(I have no license) I enjoy watching out the window and normally am thinking something else entirely when these thoughts arise. I also have more disturbing thoughts that pop up which are related to an incident when I was molested. It feels weird "saying" that, getting it out....it's weird how a word like that can make you feel so fucking dirty. Oh well, past is past and dead is dead, right?

Love you my Loves!
Imp