Kinda Pissed

So I found this site where they basically bitch out kids for cutting themselves and or trying to kill themselves. Granted, some kids are annoying and trying to get attention. Though wouldn't you think for a child to go tha extreme something is obviously wrong with them? It isn't that they FAILED AT LIFE! It's tha someone severely fucked them up or they have some comprehending of some shit tha you will never understand.

I am a fucking cutter. I don't do it for show. I don't hope people will ask and point it out. Fucking thoughts cannot be stopped and the only way to end the flow of fucked up thought is by distracting your mind. The only way to know you won't fucking forget some stupid ass shit you did was to MAKE yourself remember FORCE IT UPON YOURSELF. So you leave a scar and you will NEVER forget. Some of us might be pussies but do you know what it takes to sit there and carve and sit in your fucking mind trying to wake yourself up?

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Fuckin A

Weeell, here I sit think of odds and ends. I have told Rick to leave in two days or less, whatever. I sit here thinking of work and friends who AREN'T RESPONDING! So yeah, I think I am about to go outside and smoke some poooot. Please won't ya come and ease my mind? Reason for me to find you, piece of mind, what can I do? To get me to you...

Yoko Kanno is a badass despite her assssian heritage.

Queen Bitch

So this is a good fucking point, right?

I was bitching to Shawna about how this decision of leaving Rick, especially after sleeping with him las night, isn't as hard as, oh say, her sisters?

I felt so guilty, and Shawna told me how she is also, of course :(, having a hard time cause her bf is moving far and won't have a car and I know how that sucks actually. When Rick was in Jail, Rehab, and Baytown. So I guess I do know how she feels. We both know we have to help each other and know that it could be so much harder and there will be harder points later on.

Now I want to do something for Sarah, I wish I could watch him for her or something, so she could get rest. I just don't think I could, I wouldn't know what to do or what helps. I wish I could help. Maybe Shawna and I can figure out something when Kaden is out of the hospital.

Oi, I am in a low, and of course I am going to be on my period soon so that doesn't help. Not to mention I don't have my meds. Eeeegh....

UNDER PRESSURE, gotta love David Bowie and Queen, fuck yeah.

How do I go about doing this? I am so fucked.