college blues

so since ive barely been to highschool where they prep you for college im freaked out about to go in and having to grasp things quickly in order to be up to speed. i just hope ill be able to get the grades i need to get accepted into the utmb. god i feel so lonely and scared. how am i gonna do this? ive never been able to commit to much, god help me. the prospect of college is frightening.

so my very first post didnt save so here it is

im seventeen and i am a hostess. i have five cats, four hamsters, one rabbit. i keep all of these in my room along with me and my boyfriend. i have three brothers, two sisters, and my parents whom both live here although they are seperated. my oldest brother is studying to be an accountant so when we almost lost the house my brother started using my dads checks to make sure everything gets paid on time. so now im studying to get my ged. i then intend on going to college and eventually med school.

my thoughts continued

work hard, do something important and earn your money. dont go to fucking daddy or mommy. earn your keep and learn how life really goes. im tired of this sheltered bullshit that every lil bitch and bastard are under. why don`t people strive to be original, different from the norm? since when has it been a good thing to fall in line with all the other sheep?

my thoughts

well ive seen alot of fucked up things since ive been around. ive come to that although ive done many things that i do regret i am glad i got all that stupid teen shit out of the way. now i am truly aware of whats really important and what deserves attention and whats really shit. i wish people would stop worrying about all stupid popularity contest. that people focus on improving themselves and trying to help those around them when capable. why do people squander over useless objects? if you want materia-

what i do(i can only post so much because im on a psp)

so i live in tejas and work at mi luna restaurant and tapas bar and grille. i smoke weed in my spare time.that and the occasional ciggarette are my only vice. as opposed to back when i used to pop pills till i would overdosed. so im doing reasonably better now in days. oh well more to say but im about to run out of room.