I do NOT know!

Well I am getting more and more excited as I read Med Student blogs. I must say I am jealous. I wish I had the memory and what not to begin retaining information. Oi I am so tired, I need coffee!

Well I must be tired. My glasses, which are always sliding off my face whenever I bend over, and tha I think I've had for two or three years, jus broke. Now I wan to cry this sucks. See, unlike some kids who at the age of 17 will still not have to pay for things such as glasses, I do, and do to the fact tha the job I have pays shittily, I cannot afford to buy glasses. Along with this my birthday is coming up but what kid wants glasses for their birthday? Shit, well happy fuckin birthday heres some glasses. Yay, I totally cannot wait. Damnit! This really sucks. I don't even wanna fucking write anymore, SHIT!

VVench


*blah, well Rick is getting his stimulus check and he is saying tha he may be able to pay for half or at least some of it. I don't know, I don't want him spending all of his money on getting me glasses. I hope T.J will have mercy and maybe considered getting them for me payback free. I doubt it, oh well, my fault for putting myself in this position.*

Fuckin Panic

Always with the panic attacks I am. I hate this paralyzing bullshit. Feel so fucking angry I can't stand it. I wanna fuckin bust my head in or punch the fuckin wall. I am not in my house. This is a nuisance. I feel so lonely for some reason. Need to do something and feel different must do something. Ever and ever and ever I know you and don't have the courage to leave you I love you.

Shit.