I Feel Hungry and Shitty

Well my fault through keeping my boyfriend I am always signing off AIM whenever he walks into the room. Even though I am not even talking to the person he doesn't want me talking to. I keep leaving friends at crucial moments. Yesterday was the worse. Someone was depressed and was about to tell me about it and then another friend was describing their mental problem. What is wrong with me? Why do I bend so easily to ones will? I am so hungry but I do not want to eat. I feel fat from all the shit I have eaten in the last few days. I feel tired too. I think I have cigarette and coffee...

Oh yeah, I don't know if someone was there or not when I logged on today but he didn't respond, I hope he isn't ignoring me but I get the feeling tha could be it. I am an ass >.<. Shit, I feel crappy, Imma go...

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