Depressiiiooon

Well I am a fucking slob!

Gives You Hell - All American Rejects

I have gained a ridiculous amount of weight which I did not even realize until, like, four fucking people had to point it out. My Mom, my boyfriends Mom, my sister, and I am sure others think it and just don't say it. I feel sickly and disgusted by myself. I am gonna start surviving on these slim fast drinks, buy a few cases and walk and so forth, borrow my brothers bike to ride and so forth.

Everything is tight on me and my stomach bulges and I find it disgusting, I can't stand to look at myself and I understand why Rick rarely fucks me, though he claims this to be related to his paranoia, which I am sure has some relevance but I know my looks do not help the matter. I have been cutting so much and he gets angry for this. Don't blame him, it is stupid emo shit.

I'm never gonna dance again, these guilty feet have got no rhythm. Though it's easy to pretend, I know you're not a fool. I should have known better than to cheat a friend, and waste the chance that I've been given, so I'm never gonna dance again, the way I danced with you. Time can never mend, the careless whispers of a good friend. To the heart of mine, ignorance is kind, there's no comfort in the truth, pain is all you'll find. ~ Careless Whisper - George Michael/Seether

I love that song, sometimes accurately describe how I feel. I also love jitterbug by Wham! lol :P

I need to download Zoolander! =O

Harvey Birdman Attorney at Law is my new favourite show, though it's already run it's course. Haha! Dislocation! Phil Ken Sebben is the best!

Wow this is a random ass post.

Well I am to be a business woman. And I have told my kin this, they were shocked and I was blunt. Painfully so even for myself. Newho, adios loves

Imp C