A Lost Day

Well, well, well, look at where I am.

I feel if I am with someone I will go insane, and if I am alone, just as well.

Waits and Bath help, along with more music. Got a bed now, and my t.v set up. Jus need a damn remote. Will be watching Twilight Zone later, I think.

I feel a bit out of touch with everything. Floating. I wish I could go off into the woods and just sit and listen to music and drink the days away.

Last night at work I was miserable in the last hour, working alone. I kept trying to remind myself of how lucky I was to even have a job, and one that pays $8 an hour. Whenever you think your life is shitty, think of the kids growing up in the slums. Always remember that something is better than nothing, no matter how shitty it may be.

Returning and leaving old friends. Flames arising, hearts dying, same shit, different day, over and over like a repeated tape.

I need some new fuckin music. I want to hear Blue Bayou.

Love you all

Imp C

Holy Hands

Been flippin knives. Bought a blue one today, same kind. I got Holy Hands.

Got some blue Boones Farm, tippin back and drinkin up.

Listening to Tool and Waits, downloading more of the latter so I can make a complete Waits c.d. It's amazing how relaxing his music is when you're half insane.

Its like playing Johnny Johnny. But with your palm! :D

Coconut flavor alcohol is good as all hella.

My hand is shaking :/

Where the FUCK is Shawna?!?! ARGAL BARGAL

Who are you to wave your finger, you must be out your mind.

I'm finally eating, a bagel. Yummy down on this!

Two Bottles of Blue

I will be getting two more bottles tonight. I've drank so much this week. Gonna keep it goin'.

I have discovered Blue Hawaiian is definitely the best out of all the Boones Farm.

Listening to The Doors.

Rick is depressing as fuck, had to talk to him since he decided he wanted me to take one of the cats and had this long ass convo. Nothings changed for me, though I pity him. He frustrates me and I frustrate myself. I want to forget it and move on.

I want to forget anyone I've ever loved and be able to stand being alone and not feel fucking insane.

Everything is just so ridiculously fucked up. FUCK

Feeling Insane

Listening to The Piano Man by some guy.

Feelin' a bit down at the moment. I'm such an obsessive bitch.

Giving myself a tattoo with my hot knife, literally. Burning blade then cutting heart into arm. Working semi well, will come out good in the end, I think.

Been drinking Kosher wine, down more so now than before.

Biding time, bored a bit, making c.d's since my PSP broke. Blows, but I am actually listening to more music now and my c.d player is louder so whatever.

Might be getting a laptop in the next few weeks. I so hope so.

Smoking more, drinking more. Oddity's.

Now listening to Careless Whisper by, that's right, George fucking Michael.

Such a sexy and sad song. :(

I got a sweet Hawaiian necklace thing. Or really a headband that I'm now wearing as a choker. .75 cent at Wal*Mart o' course.

Wow my life is a boring shithole. Whoopity fuckin doo.

Why does shit have to be so ridiculously depressing? >=/

Love,
Imps

Hopeless/Boones Farm

Sitting here drinkin alone, waiting for my furnd Shawna to come over. Bought a carton a smokes, the power is awesome!

My head hurts like a bitch, I think due to cheap wine.

I confessed a love to someone the other day and everything seems somehow different. Not bad and not good, strange to say the least.

Broke up with Ricardo today, or technically yesterday morning. Feel good about, refuse to dwell on it and am focusing on myself and other people.

I am pondering asking a guy out at work, or giving him some signals to ask me out. I know he's single and he thinks I'm hot so we'll see if that leads anywhere.

I am definitly not in a rush though.

Love
Imp